Ruby’s Going Home With Hobbies
Ruby’s going home with hobbies
I finally feel strong enough to go back to Spain. I miss the sun, I miss my friends, and I am enjoying feeling something positive after so long in this dark hole.
I understand that I am going to be on a journey of recovery for a while, and that down days are a normal part of recovery, but I feel something that I haven’t felt in a very long time, and that is ‘Optimism’. I also feel a little excited about finding somewhere new, having my own space, and making a home, even if it is just for a little while. I will be going for 6 months to start with. I don’t know how I will handle the big bad world, being alone, or responsibility, planned on 6 months initially to be sure that I am not taking on more than I can handle. The thought of ‘indefinitely’ is frightening, so I am doing what I can to limit that fear, manage it, and try to function in as normal a life as I can for a while.
The court case is due to happen just a few days before I leave. I’m not expecting any resolution from this hearing as it’s a ‘Cases Management and Plea’ hearing. My understanding is that after the hearing, Twat Face has 25 days to come to an agreement with the prosecution (CPS) regarding his plea. He could plead not guilty, in which case the prosecution can come back saying how confident they are, and if he were to agree to take some of the charges, they would drop the others. He could plead guilty, in which case, a sentencing hearing would be scheduled, and is the best case scenario, or he could plead not guilty, refuse any deals, and force the CPS to go to trial. If this is the case, I should know by the end of March, and may need to come back in the summer for a trial. I don’t mind, it would be one step closer to closure. Either way, the case is moving on whilst I seem to be standing still. I can’t keep waiting for this to be over, I also have to move forward. It feels nice.
I want to lower my sleeping medication, but I don’t know which one. I need a conversation with my doctor before I make any bold moves, but I feel very positive just thinking about it.
I’ve enjoyed taking photographs this week, and managed to do some lovely ones in the M&M shop in London. It took a long time to get the shots that I wanted, but I got them. Please let me know what you think..
Hobbies are important to your well being. It is important to take some time out to do something that you enjoy. Do something that is for you, and not for someone else. Whatever it is, if you enjoy it, do it. It gives you purpose and a reason; it can be therapeutic, distracting and satisfying. The first I have is photography, something that I can’t believe took me so long to find, and the second is knitting, which I found years before I thought I would.
Knitting stopped me becoming unraveled, and that is the truth. It is something that literally held me together, and introduced me to a group of ladies that are all wise, fun, talented and productive. They are continually working on charitable projects that I have happily got involved with, and can’t wait to share some of my projects with you.
My third, and newest, shall be to work through my bucket list, crossing things off as I gather more and more control over my destiny. If you’ve heard of the secret, you will understand, but if you haven’t, I can’t wait to share my journey with you.
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